The Same Person; Different Time and Story

They say, If you dream of someone too often, it's probably because you've been thinking much about him/her. Is it true? I don't think so.

it could probably be that person who's been thinking of you much. Is it true? I don't know. But this case is almost impossible, in my case.

They also say, that could be a sign. Maybe that person will be in your future. Is it true?

I seriously don't know.

Well.. this is an old story. But I suddenly want to talk about it. I'm just bored, okay?



Everyone has crush, no matter how much they hate the opposite sex of theirselves. They at least have one crush, whether the just admire her/him a bit. That goes without saying. God gives us time to grow up, to like the opposite sex of us, to love someone.

And so do I. I can say.. I don't have any crush right now. But I have a man whom I've been.. updating. Lol yes nam woohyun!

So.. what is happening to me? I mean, what HAD been happening to me?

I have this one ex-crush who not a long time ago kept on coming to my dream. If I'm not mistaken, It had been 2 months and he had been coming to my dream seven times. Surprising, isn't it? In 2 months and I'd already dreamt of him 7 times. What the hell was actually happening to me? Did I keep thinking about him? No way. I'm sure I think about woohyun more often but woohyun seldom comes to my dream.

I couldn't lie. I ever thought of him, I ever wanted to know how's he been doing. But, seriously. Why did it have to be you?

I talked about this situation to one of my classmate and she said..
"it may be due to your future connection with him, who knows though? You may be his future wife in the future."

Fck. I shouldn't talk to her. It makes me worried.

But then again, who I am? No one. He had never seen me, it was always me who has been curious about him. It was always me.. who wanted to talk to him. It was always me.. who get so emotionally annoyed everytime he said words that I never wanted to hear. It was always me.. who kept the high expectation.

I should be aware, that I'm nobody to you. I should be aware that I'm not pretty enough to catch your eyes. Fuck my life. Not only my face which isn't pretty, neither is my personality.

This is also the reason why I don't want to have crush or even fall in love. I'm okay with falling in love with my idol because I know, if he doesn't reply me, I'm okay with it. He's an idol, and I'm just one of his fans.

Then, were the dreams all the same stories? No. He didn't even play the impotant role in my dream. He was just there, either be quiet or talk a little. There was no story such as I'm becoming his wife and anything. He simply just.. stood there. Just there, yeah.