Dear My Future 17 Years Old Kid

Kid, when you're growing up, life will be hard. You'll be either too happy or too sad. I hope when you're at my age (17 years old right now), I'll be with you. I'll be supporting what you really want to do. You want to be a mathematics teacher? Then do it, and study well on it. Don't worry about the other subjects that you don't like. I will be a cool mom who support what you like. Money doesn't always come first, but I want you to be happy. Not only based on money, but also based on what you really like.

Exams time will be hard when you don't focus on the other subjects and only focus on what you really like, but believe me, it'll be over like what this weird mom of yours will have done. But if you like many subjects and can focus on so many subjects, you're awesome, you're much better than me and I'll be really glad to have you. My last wish for you is to really find what you really like. Don't be like me who used to like many things but was also confused on what I really want to do next, okay?

When you're at my age, please behave and be happy. Don't do drugs, smoke, and be a playboy/playgirl. Personality comes first, knowledge comes second. I know not everyone who does drugs and smoke is bad, but still, I want you to be happy with people like how I do right now. Having friends, talks, eat, and be happy. No needs to smoke or do drugs to make you happy. No needs to have much swag and show it to the world. Just be happy, and people will still be jealous of you.

When you like anyone or you think you fall for someone, tell me. If you're a boy, you must be too embrassed but even if you start to date anyone, I won't let you! Not because I don't like it or I want you to focus on your school, but I just want to remind you of how dating days are stupid. When you're dating anyone and then breaking up, it's called stupid. You get happy at first, but you'll be sad in the end. That's why if you want to date anyone, make sure that the person will be in your future too. Don't think shortly! Why are you chasing for such a temporary happiness when you can wait for the entire happiness?

Although your mom hasn't known yet whether the marriage life will be full of joy or not, but.. HEY YOU HAVE BORN. You're born from me and your weird dad's happiness. We may have fight but I'll make sure that we won't part away. You won't have broken home life, I freaking promise you. Because right now, your mom's secret wish it to have a comedy marriage life. Kid, love doesn't last forever but laugh.. laugh can make us happy and feel like life is beautiful. Your mom doesn't need love right now, I only want attention and be happy. AHAHAHAHAHAHA

Anyway!! If you want to have or do anything, talk to me. I may won't give it to you right away but I'll think about it again and have reasons to whether give it to you or decline it. And also, If one day you're mad at me, don't keep it in your heart. Talk to me and break my egoism. Not all parents are perfect and so will be I. It's okay to dislike my annoying character than saying "you shouldn't hate her, she's your mom." I'll learn a lot from you too, you know. Whether you'll be a good kid or not, I'll still learn a lot from you.

When you're at school, please be yourself and behave well. I know it'll be hard if you become more rebel, but hey, why should you become a rebel? Are you mad at anyone? Are you hating me? Are you showing off your rebel side to anyone? Do you need attention? Talk to me! If you don't like how your school education system, talk to me and I'll say "do what you really put your interest in." You want to study computer but the school isn't giving you enough time to study for it? Then, study for it by yourself and If your dad support you too, I'll ask him to provide things that you need. Don't worry about your homework, your mom likes to study math, chemistry, and english and if I still can help you, I'll help your homework. I don't care about the subjects that request reading, you should study it by yourself or leave it LOL just do what you think will be needed in your future.

Life will be confusing. Seriously. Your mom is having hard time right now. Your mom hates cheating, but also don't want to do what she doesn't put her passion in it. Crazy. But this is how your mom live. This is why I write this for you. I hope you won't be as confusing as I am right now.

You study english well, don't you? Because hey one day I want to talk in english with you and talk about your dad. I don't know whether he can understand english or not but if he doesn't understand it, then let's complain about him in english and embrass him! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~~~ if he can, then.. let's have a full of swag family LOL

Anyway kid.. thank you for reading this and making me imagining all the things I want myself to teach you later. Have a cool life. Laugh a lot like how your mom does to prevent the stress ehehehehe~