Confession

"If I told you that I liked you,
what would you do?"

-Fira Faatihah's 2016's bravest words.

Confessing your feeling to your crush is hard.

It's not supposed to be easy like those k-drama.

And yet, I've confessed two times.

My crush in class and bestfriend in crime.

Those times aren't easy.

I feel embrassed, sorrowful, agitated, and.. relieved.

The reason?

Isn't it because I can't keep my feeling for longer?

Well.. it's true but there's also another reason.

I want to lose the damn feelings.

Knowing how I don't attract guys' attention,

I give up on myself.

Whether I try hard to be pretty

or having the personality like what they want.

There's no use.

I'm also too young.

17 years old..

I need at least 6 years to get married

Who the hell wants to have me as their girlfriend for 6 years?!

So, is confession really bad?

That depends on you and your strong heart.

I always think that Girls should just keep their feelings hidden.

Because Girls aren't supposed to chase their crush.

But in my case, 

I confess because I want to end the freaking damn feelings.

By getting rejected or avoided.

That's good.

Please make me hate you, Babe.

***

"If I told you that I liked you,

what would you do?"

"I've predicted it though.

What should I do..??

What can I do?

You get it (the feeling) from God afterall."

"Nope.

This one (feeling) comes from satan.

You should've rejected me harsly though.

"Whatever.

I'm going to sleep."

"Bye." 

"Bye."